whew!! that’s done, are yall alright? what a year! if I could sum up my experience of 2018 in one word it would be, bruhhhhhhhh lol. 2018 challenged me in so many ways, it groomed me into becoming. . . yeah. . . BECOMING! I don’t know exactly what that means for me today, but I know that I am not the same person today as I was entering 2018. At the beginning of 2018, I was just getting over a four-year relationship, moving into my own apartment, starting a new job, and beginning a masters program in clinical psychology. How I managed to stay afloat is only by the grace of God. I battled with chronic sadness and had plenty of moments where I felt isolated from the world. My thoughts led me astray, fear and doubt gripped me and I could not shake them off. Have you ever heard the term “if you can’t beat them, join them?” yeah, that was my experience. I avoided many places and people out of fear, I dealt with extreme trust issues. At that point, I was just done with life. I knew it was time for a drastic change when the thought of suicide crept into my mind. It was at that point where I asked God to intervene, I began to cast down all imaginations and thoughts that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God (2nd Corinthians 10:5). Looking back at it now, there was no basis to those fears, just shadows! I won’t lie to you though, this process was not easy, it was a battle. BUT GOD. He came through for a sistah! and I am so thankful, His grace is and was sufficient. as for 2019. . . I’M READY! I know that God will do infinitely more than I might ask or think (Ephesians 3:20). I pray that 2019, blesses you and grants you all your heart’s desire.
Yours in love,